Over 70 years ago I entered into an experiment called life.  About 7 months ago I realized I was the experiment.  I am the experience.  It is and always had been within my control to live a full life.  But I squandered so much of it focusing on bullshit.  I nurtured my sense of being a victim. I often created resentments and fear when I would have been better served to create love and kindness. 

So lately I am focused on being present and focused on wholesome attributes. I realize that fear, greed, hate and delusion accompanied by anger, impatience, jealousy and such, have often robbed me off the joy of living in the now. 

I refer to my mind as being like a garden…. needing constant weeding and fertilization to stay healthy. I wish my garden could look as good as I feel. I wish I could feel as good as I look. (I want to thank my mom for my beautiful gray hair.)

So I will continue my activities of biking, watching tv, reading and going to 12 step recovery (and disliking anything Trump). But I will try remain vigilant not to judge my friends who embrace Trump or the far Right. I will bring to mind all the wonderful flawed people who are my friends, or whom I have represented in court and in the streets.

My inner-life has grown too big to allow my spiritual destruction to result from mundane pursuits for economic security and transient pleasures.

The experiment continues. 

May “all beings” be happy, healthy and whole.
May they have love, warmth and affection.
May they be protected from harm, and free from fear.
May they be alive, engaged and joyful.
May “all beings” enjoy inner peace and ease